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*MY Virginity Was lost!*

We kissed soo hard,  He pushed me on to the bed,  Telling I shouldn't be scared,  I told him I wanted everything perfect,  He told me everything was perfectly all right,  Damn, why didn't I felt right,  I threw him a condom,   He said *fuck* the condom,  He tore my clothes,  And threw it on the floor,  He locked the door,  telling me not to scream,  It was like a dream, As he went faster,    As he went deeper,  The more pain I felt,   But I kept quiet for his comfort.  After all this,  I took my pants and belt,  I felt soo sick and bad,   I could hardly take a step, My Virginity Was lost.  That's when he uttered,  "Thanks for your service,  You may leave now"  And threw me my bag,  The words that broke my heart,  The words that faked my love,  These words I shall remember, ...

Baby plz dont go

I don't need your explanations,  I've had enough of your fictions,  I don't need phone calls, can't you see?  I'm not asking for forever,  Can't you just stay a bit longer?  We can just watch an old movie,  I can make u a cup of tea,  You don't need to bring in your bag,  I won't even ask for a hug,  Just want to have you here with me...

The love in your eyes

 words weaken but feeling gives power  the love in your eyes covers it  fresh tears trickling through old suffering  waves of pain banging on the rocks  frost prevails in the ravine of sentiment  conditions embroidery coarse cross stabbing  everything is so fragile in the glass garden  transparent crystal experiencing vulnerability  the heart often follows dreamed shadows  recognition in the mirror gives me rest  under the winter sun, you are the echo of my soul  and your strength gives me a pleasant sensation...

Inside My Head :

 Suicidal thoughts kept running through my  head  ,  Thinking maybe i'll be better off dead,  My life is like algebra hard to find a solution,  To me killing myself is the only option,  Slowly cutting my wrist with a razor blade,  Leaving scars on my skin that will never fade,  Whenever i sit and try to figure out why,  All i get is flashbacks and a reason to cry,  Each day that goes by there is a battle to face,  With someone telling me i'm such a disgrace  It's like no one cares about me or my feelings,  Because the more i try to change the less they start caring,  I really wish my life could start over,  And maybe everything will be much better,  But for now i'll stay in this cold hearted world,  And maybe i"ll have a story to tell,,,,

See Through The Eyes Of A Child

Come step in these shoes and run for awhile  Feel my heart pound from this fast-footed pace  Then you’d know the fears each day I must face  If you could see through the eyes of a child  Tomorrow will monkeys play in the wild  Will dolphins and whales survive much longer  You persevere you ravage you plunder  Why don’t you look through the eyes of a child  Man is unbalanced his soul is on trial  The rich drink champagne buy shares on the moon  Children are starving for love and for food  Come on and look through the eyes of a child  Men kill each other destroying the wild  They slaughter brothers torture our mothers  They poison the sod in name of their god  Just try to see through the eyes of a child

Stolen Moments

 As I watched you for endless of times  While your mind wandered through  Soft smiles curved your lips  As your glances captured through  No words spoken between  Only souls whispered softly  Embracing all silent moments  Between you and me  I caress your mind with love  Making love, untouched  Feeling the warmth of your body  Kissing your lips within this muse  Stolen moments are all we had  With lingered memory of a our love  Yet I close my eyes to that moment  Only you and I will ever understand...

IN THE NAME OF LOVE

In the name of love we rise,  Drawing the rules never break,  The speaker order equalize,  Making clauses and chapters,  As we make every vote count,  For this love has become political,  Making our house constitution  I need a love so much liberated,  Where we are equal partners,  Democracy a rule we threw away,  Free like a bird we never do fly,  Not a love we vote for winner,  Just so the majority vote win,  Bribery we throw out the window.  Our home has become a parliament,  Show of might muscle stretching,  Kids taking side left all alone,  Always losing the election vote,  Because that’s how I see it,  Poisoned their minds in all ways,  As I sit in a dark corner always.  No division before we were one,  Demographic separation settled in,  In clusters we have made barriers,  Our hearts were one, now in tribes,  Like water and oil we don’t mix,  As we...

I BURNED THE BRIDGE

 Yes, as crazy as it sounds,  I burned the bridge behind me,  The bridge that connects  My very happy present  With my once tormented past  For nothing can make me  Go back!  Things that happened  And can't be undone  I keep them as just memories  Because it is time to move on!  Learned my lessons well  From past mistakes made  And now my strength  I have fully regained,  I have one thing to do:  To keep my faith at high  As I go along in my life!  Yes, as crazy as it sounds,  I burned the bridge behind  But I built a new solid one  That will connect me  To a brighter and better future

Today's Reality :

 Big House, Small Family.  More Degrees, Less Common Sense.  Advanced Medicine, Poor Health.  Touched Moon, Neighbours Unknown.  High Income, Less Peace of Mind.  High IQ, Less Emotions..  Good Knowledge, Less Wisdom.  Number of affairs , No love.  Lot of friends on Facebook, No best friend.  More alcohol, less water.  Lots of Human, Less Humanity.  Costly Watches, No Time.!!

End Of Teen

I might have come to the end of my teenage...  But I'm not gonna feel for it...  Because I have got what I need...  I have got a couple of good friends,  I have got a sweet little sister,  I have understud what's love,  I have understud what's life,  I have gone through worst days,  I have gone through a heart break,  I have seen some stupid people,  I have seen few special characters,  I have discovered what I'm capable of,  I have discovered whom I should trust,  I have decided how I should be,  I have decided how I shouldn't be,  In this past 19 long years, i might have missed out some entertainment,  But I'm not worried about it...  I would have be hatted be some people,  But I'm not gonna feel for it...  Its my life, and im happy with the way iam....

Insomniac

“Something amazing is happening when the rest of the world is sleeping. I am glued to my chair. I forget that I ever wanted to do anything but write. The crowded city suddenly seem spacious. Three or four hours pass in a moment; I have no idea what time it is, because I never check the clock. If I chose to listen, I could hear the sound of breeze that enter through the window, I could smell the fragrance of rose's from the garden"  I love being Insomniac grin emoticon

one more time

Daydreaming, Here I am....  Hopping that for just a single moment...  You would look back, from where I am...  Our love story is something,that is worth writing...  You are my first and last love...  Though our promises were sealed in our hearts....  It did not last...  Until now im still treasuring those moments...  We once had when we were in love...  Hoping that, someday you will be back

Haunted Heart

She haunts my heart  like an enchanted ghost  from a stone castle - dark  where love lays dead  almost.  She scared me from the start  with her firmament of hope  betwixt moonlight and shooting stars  we danced alone  below.  She warms my very thoughts  if not just my demon soul  which for love  has been at war with the gods  over her - who haunts me so  in the Gothic ruins of my heart  where love lays dead  almost O_O

Miss me not when im gone

Miss me not,  When I go away,  For I will still stay,  Every night and day,  By your side,  Though I shall hide,  In your breath,  And your whisper,  You can't see me,  Nor talk to me,  All that U can do is,  Move on, just move on,  Never stop nor weep,  when im gone....

Beautiful She

 I can sing a tune about her  I can hum and hum about her  I can write stories and tails about her  in fact it’s all about her  it’s she and nothing more  complete the one I like  complete yeah really that ‘s the word  complete  I will not stop with writing  in words and passion  in day and the night  keeping her memory makes me bright  only she and nothing more  only dedication to what life bounds  love and love and love  with above and love  to above with love  love and love and love  Which is  nothing more than a  "friendly love" wink emoticon

Of What ???

Of what shall I write?  The cold, the shivering,  the blank maze of fog?  The pains and misunderstandings,  the subdues of relationships?  The tales of friendship?  The memoirs of happiness?  The bulk of lessons,  the raining bullets of thought?  Peddling legs, weaving dreams?  Unspoken words, silent gestures?  Hopeful assumptions? Discredited ideals?  Of what shall I write when the words  dissolve into the depths of blank diaries?  Of wasted time? Of vain reveries?  Of underrated feelings?  Of mainstream discussions?  Of ignorance, of vanity,  of distinguished personalities?  Of what shall I write  To you-  Of love? Of separation?  Of disparities of sitting miles apart?  Of what, my love? Of what?

Counting My Days

 I am counting my days  I will count my days  From beginning  To the end  Lots of things  Lots of dreams  I need to have a perfect plan  Place and time for every event  A perfect timing for everything  End to end  I will control  What happens  What doesn't  Wait!  I know where to start  But where do I stop?  I know when it started,  But when will it end?

Presidency pasanga

Ended up from different places,  Entirely different surrounding,  Each with different dreams,  Ever one with different aim...  Few were here just to learn,  Few were here to enjoy life,  Few were here to get new friends,  Few were here to lead there families...  The classes that we have bunked,  The parties that we have attended,  The exams that we have copied,  The days that we have spent together...  Birthday treats, canteen tea.  University lunch, pwd chicken rice.  Beach sundal, Ibaco ice cream.  Kfc crushers, McDonald burgers...  I don't wanna miss these things...  I want to start it over again, so that...  I can fulfil my missed out dreams, or else...  I wish my life to end here right now frown emoticon

Don't say goodbye

Don't say goodbye  I'm sure I'll see you again,  I'll be waiting for you on the other side of the horizon,  We'll play with the rays of the Red Sun  While we rest in the shadow of peace  Far away from the evils of this world.  Don't say goodbye  It's hard to part,  Sweet words will be woven into a garland  We'll wear it around our necks and usher in Life with our smiles,  Who knows Life may end and begin from the start.  Don't say goodbye  Let everything turn new today,  Old promises can be put away  Let our dreams spread across the sky,  I'm sure I'll see you again  On the other side of the horizon

I do(nt) Care :-

 I laugh and say  I don't care  Even if I am hurt  By your actions and words  Meant to hurt me intentionally  Just to make you feel  I am strong enough , I am tough  To live with all wounds  You can give me with love  Believe me  Whenever I am alone  Things that runs through my mind  Are all your harsh behaviour  Breaking me in bits and pieces  Slowly & slowly everyday  I don't want to admit  That I really care for your words  But somewhere deep in my heart  I do care  I do care for your words  And the way you said  I do care  You once cared for me  Like a true lover  I laugh loudly and say  I really don't care  But I do care  The way you hurt me & my heart

Pick your path:-

LIFE is a journey  Meant to be enjoyed  A chance of a lifetime  To discover one's potentials  A miracle unfolding everyday  Right before our very eyes  A gift we should share  With people that matters to us  Full of ups and downs  And twists and turns  Sometimes its rough  At times a bumpy ride  But who cares...  Everything that happens  Be good or not so good  Are parts and pieces  That makes us better person  Weep if u have to  Cry your heart out if u must  Laugh like there's no tomorrow  After all...  LIFE is what we make it  You can either enjoy every single moment  Or lurk in darkness like a shadow

Meaning Of Love

You never knew what was love, Neither did I, before meeting you. Love has no meaning dear, If for its birth, never been fought. Tears shed for pain and pleasure, Bathed words whispered slight,  Two dancing alone in dark,  Despite knowing the danger. Love definitely isn't a game,  Neither a foolish lust, Nor a bond made in heaven.  Love is something, with eternal trust  So know that when love appears,  It has but just one goal, To take you to eternity,  In heart, and in soul...

TIME TO PUT THE PEN DOWN

 There is no reason for how I feel right now,  There is no who, what, where, when, or how.  I just think it’s time, time to take my leave.  There may be no reason, but there is a feeling in my heart,  I hate the way it hurts, unable to finish what I start.  Tears well up inside me and I cannot control their release,  It’s funny how I can express myself more easily in the written word,  But when I try to speak my mind, not a single word is heard.  Now it appears that even my writing have an end,  Time to put the pen down, no more writings I will send.  It hurts me to write this, and my words bleed across the paper,  The ink will dry; the words will survive, but maybe not their creator.  My life has been hard, and it has taken a bitter toll.  I may live soo long, or may leave soo soon.  I've wasted two decades, following footsteps.  And when I started building my own path.  Time fleeted, money vanished ...

Life Goes On

Don't remember when started walking  Slept sometimes ,sometimes running  Goals shifted here and then  Sometimes pleasure, sometimes pain  Lanes,and by lane  Reached,when I can  School, hospital, workplace  Many friends, all in race  Love and war,Hate and fear  Wise and fool,hot and cool  Near and far ,distant and dear  Who is who, rarely I care  Many praised, many pulled leg  Some deceived some carry my beg  In thick crowd alone still  Don't have mind, don't have feel  How much is left,Whom can I talk  Alone I came, alone have to walk....